Disclaimer: This blog is based on my personal experience. It contains emotional reflections that may be triggering. If you’re affected by anything in this post, please reach out to your GP, doctor, or local support line or Samaritans service.
Why I’m Finally Sharing My Story Now…
I’ve been sitting on this story for months, not because I was hiding, but because I genuinely didn’t know how to say what needed to be said. How do you find the right words to describe pain that you carried in silence? How do you capture the weight of healing from something that nearly broke your spirit?
I thought once I left the hospital, the words would come easily; I imagined I’d feel empowered, relieved, or at least ready to speak. The truth is, I felt… empty. Confused. Frozen. What I’d just gone through wasn’t only physical. It was deeply emotional, spiritual even, and I was processing it all alone. I had no words for what I was feeling, no way to describe the emotional fog I was in. I was frozen. On pause. Life stood still for me.
What made this experience even more intense was the isolation. Every doctor’s appointment, every trip to and from the hospital, the operation table, the recovery, the healing – all of it… was just me.
This isn’t a medical blog post, nor is it a step-by-step recovery guide. This is my truth, seven months after a major fibroid operation, finally finding the strength to begin telling my story out loud. It’s not just for me, but for every woman who’s felt invisible in her pain.
I wanted to share my healing journey, not just through words, but alongside my YouTube video diary to truly show you how it all unfolded.
So here it is… my journey, my recovery, and the raw truth behind it all.
Looks Like VS Reality
What I Thought Healing Would Look Like vs. Reality
When I first heard the word “operation,” I had a clear picture in my mind: “Okay. I’ll be down for a few weeks. I’ll bounce back. I’ve got this.” I’ve always been strong; I’ve always had to be. Losing my dad at a young age, made me into a fighter, someone who pushes through even when everything hurts or when times get tough. So I truly believed I could approach this in the same way. I was wrong.
The first few weeks after the operation were brutal. This wasn’t just physically, but emotionally devastating. I wasn’t simply healing from a procedure; it felt like I was falling apart inside. There were moments I felt like my soul had been cracked open, moments I didn’t recognise my body or my mind. There were times I cried and didn’t even know why.
No one tells you that healing often means re-learning how to feel safe in your own body again. During these times, I literally had to re-learn how to walk again, on my own. The complications I had during my operation were unbelievable, and they underscored a harsh truth: healing takes time – slowly, intentionally, and painfully. Especially, this operation.
The harsh reality was I went through it all alone. There was no family, no hand to hold in the quiet, terrifying moments. I had to advocate for myself at every hospital visit, often with an interpreter I didn’t know. I had to hold myself when the nights were too long and the pains too loud. I had to find strength I didn’t know I had. People say time heals, but time doesn’t heal what you keep buried. And I buried a lot.
Now, as I stand here, I am profoundly thankful for my growth through this experience. Alhamdulillah.
Reclaim Your Body
The Emotional Journey of Reclaiming My Body
Living with fibroids made me feel like I was trapped inside a body I no longer recognised. It felt like I was carrying a dead child. As traumatic as that sounds, it’s my truth, and it created a profound sense of loss. After the operation, I was left with this empty space in my heart. Even now, I sometimes relive those moments of trying to reclaim my body.
Before my operation, my body felt foreign. Swollen. Tired. Disconnected. Yet, after the operation… it didn’t magically go back to being “mine.” Instead, I was left with a big C-section scar, a physical reminder of the void. There was this emptiness that no one warned me about the kind that lingers in your chest and belly, reminding you that something is gone… but also that something new is beginning.
As women, our bodies are powerful, sacred. When I found out I had fibroids, everything changed, my body, my energy, my confidence. I felt exhausted all the time. My body no longer felt like my own. And if your body ever feels “off,” please, get checked by a doctor or your local GP to get referred. An early diagnosis can change everything. (even if it’s not to do with fibroids)
As someone who’s always loved fitness and the gym, this physical and emotional disconnect was overwhelming. I didn’t recognise myself. I avoided mirrors. I felt ashamed, even though I had nothing to be ashamed of. Writing this feels easier than saying it out loud.
I still remember trying to lift myself off the bed for the first time. I still remember the fear of taking my first proper shower, worried I’d pass out. I still remember lying on my side, whispering “you’re okay” to my own body, hoping she’d believe me. Seven months later, I can honestly say I’m about 5% back to myself. That might sound low, but for me, it’s monumental progress. It’s honesty. And it’s enough for now.
Why Only 5%? My Recovery Timeline
Healing isn’t a straight line; it’s a winding path. Here’s a glimpse into the emotional and physical landscape of my recovery, and why I say I’m only at 5%:
- Month 1: My body was in shock. The complications during my operation left me foggy and unsure of what had even happened. I returned home alone, overwhelmed, numb, and deeply disconnected.
- Month 3: My mental health hit rock bottom. I worried I’d never feel like myself again. I cried almost daily, struggling to explain what I was going through.
- Month 6: I started the slow, delicate work of reconnecting with myself. With my womb. With my soul. This part of emotional recovery is still ongoing, and it’s undeniably the hardest part.
Through this crazy process, I now understand my body in a much deeper way. I’ve learned to listen when she whispers instead of waiting for her to scream. I nourish her differently now. I move slower. I speak softer. And I thank her more than ever for surviving, for carrying me, for staying.
Her Body, Her Power Community
Why I’m Choosing to Share This Now
I’m sharing this because silence doesn’t heal us. Because someone out there is undoubtedly going through what I did, and I want her to know she’s not crazy. She’s not weak. She’s not alone.
When I was deep in recovery, I searched everywhere for stories like mine. I didn’t want another clinical explanation; I wanted raw, real stories. I wanted real women to speak their truth. I desperately needed to feel less alone. So, if this blog reaches just one woman who needs to hear this, it will have done what I always needed back then.
That’s why I created Her Body, Her Power Community – to be a space for women like me:
- Women who are tired of being told their pain isn’t real.
- Women who want more than just clinical answers.
- Women who are ready to come home to themselves, even if the journey is hard.
This blog post is the beginning of me walking in my truth, not in pieces, but in power. Our stories are sacred; they are the blueprint to our healing.
Fibroids stole a lot from me, my time, my energy, my joy but they didn’t take my voice. And I’m using it now.
Inspired By Cee – Youtube Thumbnail
My Video Diary: Part 1 of My Fibroid Journey
As part of this journey, I’m so excited to share the first glimpse thumbnail of my part 1, I wanted to do more than just write, I wanted to speak directly to you. That’s why I’ve recorded a 3-part video diary that I’ll be uploading soon. These videos are an extension of this blog, diving deeper into the layers of my experience. Here’s the first thumbnail glimpse.
Here’s what will be covered:
- Part 1: Understanding Fibroids and My Symptoms. An overview of fibroids, what they are, how they affected me, and the symptoms I experienced. I also answer some of the questions my followers have asked about my journey.
- Part 2: The Turkish Hospital Experience. I will take you through the Turkish hospital experience, how the process works over there, including the care, what to expect after a big operation, and what to expect if you’re considering surgery abroad.
- Part 3: Post-Surgery Changes and Conscious Wellness. I talk about the changes I’ve made post-surgery—everything from the foods I’ve introduced, to the apps I use for checking product ingredients, to how I now approach beauty and wellness from a more conscious, womb-aware perspective.
These videos are raw, informative, and made for anyone navigating fibroids or looking for support in reclaiming their health. Keep an eye out; all three parts will be available soon. I’ll update this blog with links as each video goes live.
- Part 1 | My Fibroid Diagnosis & Why I Chose Surgery
- Part 2 | My Surgery Day | THe Moment I Didn’t Wake Up
- Part 3 | Healing After Trauma | My Fibroid Surgery Recovery & Self-Discovery
- Bonus Part 4 | Coming Soon !
In the meantime, you can follow my journey and subscribe to my channel and receive all updates on my YouTube channel here: Inspired By Cee Channel
To Every Woman Reading This…
If you’re hurting, confused, or carrying something heavy in silence, please know this…
You are not alone. Your story matters. And you don’t have to walk this path without support.
This journey is far from over for me, but I’m finally ready to bring you along. Not from a place of perfection, but from a place of truth.
Here’s to reclaiming our bodies. Here’s to healing in our own time. Here’s to Her Body, Her Power.
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